Honor's English Final: My Sophomore Year! :)

   My sophomore year has been an unexpected school year. Their has been many tears and smiles some I shared with and some I was all alone. I would like to start off by saying thank you to the ones who have helped me become a junior even though sophomore year was fun. I am glad to say that the summer break has arrived and I will leave sophomore year with a lot of good memories. Even though I was not involved in a lot in school activities I really like this school and it made my sophomore year a really good one.

  High school is no joke it is not to be messing around with. High school really reflects on how your future will be and turn out to be. I have learned a lot during my sophomore year, not just mentally but socially and personally. The teachers played a big role in this learning experience not just because they are teachers but because of their experiences they are willing to help us and give us the tools to accomplish what we want in life; and I thank them for that. My friends and family have been a part of my learning journey too. I have learned that there will always be problems and obstacles in life but you have to be strong and overcome them. Not always will there be somebody by your side so you have to learn to do things on your own but you also have to learn how to except the help offered to you at times because sometimes you may really need it without you noticing it. From experience I say it is important to exceed others expectations and prove people wrong but do it for your own good.

    Sophomore year has helped understand the importance of education. We are two years from graduating and going to college. From different peoples perspective of live I have found ways to live the life that best suits me. Education has been one of those things that I have learned to make it an important part of my life.

   I did go through a lot this year. My family was a wreck. I went through major depression this year that it was hard to handle life situations, school, and my social life all at the same time. Even though I was not going through it alone it would hurt me and affect me a lot more because others around me that I loved were going through the same and I knew how it felt so I would feel bad for them. Thanks to god and the way others helped me think I overcame some of that depression. Though it is a long process I am hanging in there.

   My family has always said “In high school you will learn who are your true friends” even though they had more experience I never believed them. Unfortunately I have been finding out who are those to be considered as friends and those who don’t. Friends and family mean everything to me. There are friends who I had met before sophomore year but there are a couple that I just met this year. Mayra, Lisandra, Madeline, Jasmelly(my panda bear) and Anabel are those who I consider my best friends and I would so share chocolate with them. Jasmelly(my panda bear)I have known since 5^th grade. Man I love this girl we have shared tears and smiles together. When we are together we are the goofiest people you will ever meet. Anabel and I have been friends since 6^th grade. We may not go to the same school but we still have been really close and she has always been there for me no matter the problem and I love her like a sister. Mayra, Lisandra, and Madeline I got to meet in 9^th grade. We have this friendship connection no one can break. Though we all are very different from each other we love one another unconditionally. Mayra is the more serious one. Madeline is the goofy one doesn’t care what anybody thinks. Lisandra is the shy one. I love these girls and i am very fortunate to have met these wonderful people and I am happy to call them my friends. I would never trade nor let one of these amazing people go from my life. They are the definition of true friends. I love you girls!!

   Sophomore year was a rollercoaster. I enjoyed what it brought to my life but it’s time for JUNIOR year and go on with this journey of life, hope it’s what I expect and more.

GO CLASS of 2012!!

wisdom quotes

"You are the only you God made... God made you and broke the mold (Lucado,Max)."
 
"Forgive and give as if it were your last opportunity. Love like there's no tomorrow, and if tomorrow comes, love again (Lucado,Max)."
 
Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead, that is where your future lies (Landers,Ann)."
 
Live as if your were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever (Gandhiji)."
 
The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it (Anonymous)."

 
A great secret of success is to go through life as a man who never gets used up (Schweitzer,Albert)."

 
"The more I give to thee, the more I have (Shakespeare, William)."

"The most wasted day is that in which we have not laughed (Chamfort)."
 

“The strongest have their moments of fatigue (Nietzsche,Friedrich)."

 
“Whatever the struggle, continue the climb. It may be only one step to the summit (Westlake,Diane)."

The courage

 

     The anxiety the worry the worst feeling your heart you can ever imagine. Wanting to purge my heart taking out all the bad feelings I still had to fake a smile. Looking at her in her soon to be death bed (so I thought) wishing every second that she will awake and open her big brown eyes. Mad at her I was for a while, how could she be so selfish and just try to leave us with this pain that we can not abide? Mad at the situations life gave her, depressed as she was I still got to see that smile once in a while.


     Tears she shed were of mixed bad feelings she would get towards her dad. The man she would wish for to be her dad never walked through that door everyday at 7pm, instead it was a man who came from work and just started yelling and getting mad for the smallest reasons. How sad that your own daughter doesn’t even want you to be home for being the big ugly oger she has to see every day.

     That night my parents thought my sister tried taking her life away for a little reason. But they don’t probably think that a lot of those little things piled up in her and that little last thing made her explode and she had nowhere to turn. Her eyes would just yell out for help. Her way of thinking actually scared her after taking pills hoping she would get the attention she would always wish for. As she was being put in the ambulance her words to me were "Crystal I am sorry but I love you" those words broke my heart and I would blame myself for a lot of things especially that incident.

     I had to find my courage by myself for four people (including myself) everyday and I think it will be for everyday of my life because if I ever would break down my little brother, my little sister, and my mother would be devastated. Amazing as it sounds my smaller siblings look up to me a lot, I’m their only way and reason for a smile to be on their face because I am their way out of their devastation even if I am living through it too.

      I am thankful she is alive and I get to hug her as I please. Though the problems are still there she has learned the lesson that only god can take your life away when he needs you. As I do she does, we help one another find the courage to go on with everyday life situations and every day we get better at it so my little brother can find the courage that we did and do the same.

    Courage is a thing I never imagined to have. In my perspective courage and bravery comes from within it is not something you practice on feeling. Each person has their own moments where they learn how much courage they have. At times one has to find courage whether they want to or not. You can even find courage within somebody as a child to. Courage has saved peoples lives and it’s a great feeling to have.


    One may have a lot of problems going on but it takes courage to over come those obstacles. At times there is people who help you get the courage and bravery but most of the time it has to be on your own.

I am :)

I Am

I am worried and scared
I wonder how people could be so crule like that
I hear the screams of different generations in pain
I see the piles of dead bodies
I want to have peace in this world
I am worried and scared

I pretend nothing so painful ever happend
I feel the pain people felt
I touch the tears children would shed
I worry it will happen again
I cry when i see the images painted in my mind
I am worried and scared

I understand things happen for a reason
I say tragedies happen but a smile should never fade away
I dream the world could be at peace
I try to stand up for what I believe in
I hope it wont ever happen again
I am worried and scared

Diego Rivera painting.

This painting painted by Diego Rivera has really brought back good memories. In this mural the children are happy and in my eyes they feel loved by their grandma. In a lot of hipanic families the grandchildren grow up and were brought up by their grandma something that I went through, that is until my grandma died of cancer.My child hood was amazing. I was one of the lucky ones because out of the grandchildren like I was the oldest I got to spend the most time with her and I was the one who recieved the most love and attention from her. She protected me just like i could see in this painting their grandma does the same thing.To me my grandma was my mom in my childhood and i know that this grandma is the childrens mom. This mural has great energy. Diego Rivera's paintings have great stories in them from the mexican life.

The Statue of Liberty

The New Colossus

By Emma Lazarus, 1883

Not like the brazen giant of Greek fame,

With conquering limbs astride from land to land;

Here at our sea-washed, sunset gates shall stand

A mighty woman with a torch, whose flame

Is the imprisoned lightning, and her name

Mother of Exiles. From her beacon-hand

Glows world-wide welcome; her mild eyes command

The air-bridged harbor that twin cities frame.

"Keep, ancient lands, your storied pomp!" cries she

With silent lips. "Give me your tired, your poor,

Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,

The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.

Send these, the homeless, tempest-tost to me,

I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"

This poem really makes me think how alot of people can be so hipacrit,because the statue is welcoming people need of liberty but then again the people of high class the ones that have the liberty want to judge and miss treat the ones who are willing to work and earn their liberty.They just want and need to earn a better life here in this land, in the home that we once took away from somebody else. In my eyes and in my belief immagrints diserve a chance beacuse on this soil we are all immagrints and thats why we have the statue.The statue that symbolises what we are all here for,FREEDOM.

Global Warning

Global warming is a big issue here in this whole world,and it is still happening because we do not change our ways of living. I agree that we do need to change to live in a better atmosphere and that is why I signed the pitition"Urge the U.S. Senate to help struggling wildlife by passing comprehensive global warming legislation". Global warming does not just affect the poor nor just the rich it is in affect with everybody living in this world including the animals. We all have a right to live and if we want to live we have to make changes and sacrifices.

Take Action again!

Our brothers and sisters from Haiti have sufered a big tragedy they need our help to get through this whole thing. Some are still dieing do to hunger and thirst. Haiti has always been the poorest place in the western hemisphere. I do not agree credit card companies are taking in profit from charitable donations and that is why i signed the pitition at http://www.theliteracysite.com/clickToGive/campaign.faces?siteId=6&campaign=CreditCardProfits I hope it does make a change because they need all they can get even if it is just $1.00.

Take Action

Today 2-9-10 our english honors teacher Mr.Leh gave us an assignment to post in our blogs. We had to sign a pitition "take action" in any thing we wanted like for example i signed the pitition for "Save Sumatran Tigers from Extiction".Tigers are one of my favorite animals,in my eyes they are beautiful creatures who diserve to live and my grandchildrens children diserve to see them.

In the site http://www.theliteracysite.com/clickToGive/takeaction.faces?siteId=6&link=ctg_lit_takeaction_from_campaign_sidetabs gives you the oppertunity to make a change. Their was pititions that I did get bothered by but all I had to do is ignore it and just sign the ones that i do want a change in.

Unexpexted Life

Life has many lessons to give you and all one has to do is learn from them. At times the unexpected happens or lessons happen that you are not prepared for and you just feel as you were put down in a selor or room underground. All one has to do is find the door way and ladder that leads to the light to get you out of that misery. Everyone has the right to be happy but you just have to find it. Life is not all pretty colors but its not just dull colors either. It is important to enjoy life because it is only borrowed not bought and god can take it away any second he pleases.So climb the ladder that leads you out of the ground towards the light and close it shut to never be put their again.If your close to the edge of being put their smile and remember things happen for a reason, if life is making us cry now it is because many more smiles we have to put on are coming our way.

Chocolate

The way it melts in your mouth almost like water you smile in comfort.

Some have a little suprise wich also makes it more enjoyable.

Chocolate, a piece of heaven on earth making it a happy place.

The Sunrise

Birds sing beautiful songs to wake me up as the bright sun rises.

The Sunset

Dolphins swim in and out,as sun sets out on the beautiful ocean.